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And I thought to myself, “Can he really be real?”
Can this be real?

And it is.

Then I cried.
Today I finally met a guy who I have been talking to online with for sometime. I was nervous, scared, afraid he'd be like the past. He wasn't. 
It was the best day ever.

Then on my way home from work. I thought to myself, reflecting back to him playing guitar in my room, 
"Can he really be real?" 
Then I started crying. My whole way home. 

This might be sappy, but i've never cried out of happiness before. 
It's something i'll never forgot. 
I feel conditioned. 
Conditioned to think a certain way about things anymore. 
I feel as though I've almost felt it all. 
And it's led to me being conditioned.

Conditioned to think the worst.
To feel the worst.
To see no end with light.
And happiness. 
Like I once used to. 

See, that's the thing with feelings.
I never had them before.
Now I do.
Now I understand.
And I hate it.
Nothing but memories haunt and torture me. 
Why did it have to come to this.

... I can't write anymore of this at this time, 
those feelings are back.


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Emmy Evers
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Artist. Athlete. Amateur Filmmaker. Music Enthusiast. World Traveler.
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papillonstudio Featured By Owner May 6, 2016  Professional General Artist
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